I cried :-(

my mom and my honey babe

I received a video called from my mom n i was so so happy n excited cz been a long time didnt saw my mom's face .Thanks for the new technology that make everything so advance^^ Actually i was crying with joy becz finally i could listened n saw my mom's face^^ i knew dat my mom knew that i was crying but she juz make joked with me by saying "Girl,u use make up har??Why both of ur eyes bling bling one(bcz of the tears)..??"I replied by saying dat"No la,where gt?"..actually my tears edi dropped by droplet.I was so so sad at the same time cz i cant even can go back home though gt one week holiday here.aLL becz of the midterm otherwise i edi back home for holiday:-( i KNEW my mom will understand my situation dat y she didnt mentioned anything juz now...Haiz...this is the situation when away from home to a place that i was trying to adapt with it before and now.

Family,Friends,Study

Family
I had been left Kuching for about one month plus and i did really miss everything there.I miss especially my mom,Hannah,Jay Jay..actually the day i left Kuching i did pray to God that don let me to drop a single droplet of tears as i had to left home to Kuantan where far apart from home. Though my heart was full of unwillingness to left home but i had no choice cz i had to complete my study within the time given otherwise i will disappoint my mom who earn money juz to let us to graduate from uni n to have a better life in future.So,in order to pay back i had to be strong n to be independent wherever i go..Thanks,mom..u r owes the best to me .Without u in my life,i wont have 2day n also everything that i have now.I knew it was a difficult task for u to take care of 5 of us especially when  the time daddy left us...u cried every night n I knew dat,mom.I knew u missed daddy so much as me too..God had brought daddy away from us n we could't do anything instead of accepted the fact. I will be strong cz i have the responsibility to take care of u n i believed that daddy wanted me to do so...I promised to u that i will always there with u wherever i go & will never left u alone .Mama,I love u so much^^

Friends
Friends...i do have lots of friends surrounding me..n they did treated me so well here ..Without them in UMP i was nothing here..they bring me joys here..they care me here...they even treat me well here..My life was so wonderful with them in my life.

Study
I'm now 3rd year n considered as super senior in UMP now..3rd year mean i had almost complete my study where next year will be my final year to stay in UMP if everything run smoothly within dis 2 years as i can graduate in 2013.Sometime,i kept on asking myself...Why i can be so intelligent in study???I owes hope to get a Dean List but I failed to do dat every semenster..I'm really disappointed with myself. I edi try my best to do it in my test n everything but at the end i cant get wat i wanted.After some days,i'm awake from that.I noe sometime even if we forced ourselves in something without motivation meant tht it will end up with nothing.So,hopefully within dis 2 years i can at least get one time Dean List or my cgpa can be increase then i'm really satisfied..I noe God will lead me all the way n i never afraid of tat^^