想太多

是我想太多，你总这样说；但你却没有，真的心痛我，是我想太多，我总这样说。。。我相信每个人都希望自己被自己喜欢的人疼爱。。但有些呢，拥有喜欢的人，却没这勇气告诉她或他喜欢的人。因为告诉一个你喜欢的人，真的需要勇气。对男生来说，就算告白失败了，还能另外找一个；女生却不同。对女生来说，对一个自己喜欢的男生告白，真的很难鼓起这个勇气。。因为一旦失败了，心里真的很难受，也很不是滋味，也很丢脸。有人说，女生对男生告白有点奇怪，换句话来说女生和男生告白，就算成功了，也不会持续很久，因为男生恐怕不会珍惜那女生。。难道这句话真的如此？？我也不是很了解，因为我不曾和男生告白，然后谈恋爱。就算我告白，也会是失败的下场。。老实说，我曾经和男生告白过，不过呢结果真的和我想象中的一样“失败”。。其实，我真的在想，我这人真得那么差吗？后来，我觉得，既然不能和他告白，那么我就选择单恋。。单恋虽然很辛苦，不过总好过和他告白，然后又失败，又要从新整理心情。。所以，对我来说，单恋也算很不错。所以，没有人知道我暗恋的是哪一位。。。哈哈哈哈。。。或许，我的时间真的还未到。。上帝其实已经预备好了，只是要我在等待。。当然，上帝给的永远都是最好的。也有朋友对我说，我人格那么好，肯定会拥有个很不错的男友。我只能说，一切由上帝决定。。不过呢，喜欢或单恋一个人真的没有错呀！！就如我现在的心情，虽然有个喜欢的人，不过我只能默默地为他祷告。。拥有和他那兴奋的时光，我也很满足了。。就算被别人说，何必这样做呢？？我会回答说，因为我很喜欢他。。也许，他的心里另有其人，不过没关系。我也没要求什么，只要求他们能天长地久，那就满足了。。也有位好朋友对我说，不要放太大希望在他的身上，因为失望会越高。我明白这句话，因为她害怕我又处于失望。。放心吧，我那好朋友，有妳的安慰，我永远都会过得很好。。

That is how life should be…

Life…..Life is complicated, life is simple, life is so wonderful…Which sentence will be more suitable to describe ur life now? I suppose to say my life is so challenging…Without challenge I guess I will not be so independent and mature. Sometime I was thinking, is there any path for me to choose instead of having such challenging life??God had answered my question…HE said I have to go through all these obstacles regardless how tough is it…I also have to overcome instead of run away from the fact.. God, u r right…No point for me to run away from this reality world cz I noe it will be more challenging in the future. Actually my final exams start next week which will end on 3^rd May. During this few days, at 1^st I was really depress or tension bcz of my carry mARKs..I felt like I was so useless compared to my course mates who can score high mark in their test and so on. I felt so tension until cried whole night (This is the other way to release my tension instead of keep it all the time). Perhaps i was too care with my result cz my pointer is dropping ..i do not hope to get such lousy result..Another reason is that I don wan to disappoint my mom who really love me so much n wan me to be succeed.I noe I couldn’t compare to both of my sis who are intelligent in their study.Perhaps I’m a slow learner that need time to adapt it…n I really put a lots of effort to achieve my goal right now…I noe it is impossible for me to change the result that I get now but I can change my final result cz de final will change everything …Hopefully everything will run smoothly …………………………………….

Independent

Independent...It will be my 2day topic to continue my blog. Many of my frens they do understand what is the meaning of "independent" but sad thing is that they dont practice it in their life especially when they step into other country (others people place). Though i juz left my home come to UMP to continue my study here but i do learn to be independent especially when our family is too far from us.Then, that is the time which we have to be independent but not dependent on your friends too much.Same to study too...Of course , learn to ask question not a bad thing but somehow we shud think that if we always asked same questions to many of fren in the same time you already know how to do the question..this shown that you are such a annoying person or in other way is that you are too lazy to learn to be independent.Is it that difficult to be independent???Is it that troublesome for u to learn to be hardworking???Dont you think that if u always disturbed others fren by asking the same question is so so annoying???People will not think that you are a good student who like to ask question but they will juz feedback to you by saying that "u r so annoying!Please dont disturb me next time!"...I can guarantee that no one will help u next time even u have change ur  that"bad habit"...So,please ...to those who are act such way,please bear in mind that do INDEPENDENT ....but not DEPENDENT to ur friends all the time...otherwise they will keep far away from u n will not think twice to help u next time...