About me..myself..my childhood time

            Well, it’s really weird to write something about my life here but I believe not much people know me well even my past life. Since I decided to write something about myself here so there is nothing that I could hide. 1^st of all, I would like to begin with a story telling which it was about a girl who had overcome all those obstacles that she’d faced since she was a baby girl. This girl named Lydia. Lydia was born in 1989 in a big family. Actually, there were about 14 family members lived in that small house that time which most of them were Lydia’s dad siblings. Perhaps before I continue to the next sentence, all of you might think that Lydia’s was come from a big and happiness family. In fact, her life was not as happy as you think. Why I said so?? Because her grandparents were totally not happy with Lydia’s family presence. Lydia really have no idea why her grandparents especially her grandpa was not happy with their presence until now. Lydia actually was in the centred of 5 of the children. Her father was just a painter which couldn’t earn much so her mother got an idea to become a baby sitter to take care of neighbour’s kids.

            However, Lydia’s family life still remains the same as her grandpa didn’t like them so much. Every time when Lydia’s eldest sisters wanted to have their revision at LIVING ROOM, her grandpa was walking down the stairs without sound. Can u imagine that scene???I’m guarantee u’ll really scared of this kind of action. Do u know the reason her grandpa came down???U will never know how cruel was this grandpa is……He was switching off all the light around the living room even the whole house. Really a cruel grandpa!!!!He also a selfish grandpa..why I said so??Becz he likes Lydia’s cousin more than Lydia’s sibling and Lydia. Every time when Lydia’s aunty (her father’s sister) came to their house, her grandpa always insulting Lydia’s family. Do u know what he said? He said to Lydia’s sibling: “ aiya,no need so rajin to study lar….u can’t even can study until higher education…What for so hardworking study during primary time??hahahaha.(He using Hokkien to say them)” Well, if u are Lydia’s mother or father, what is ur reaction towards these words???Lydia’s mothers still not giving up raising them up until higher education and so her father.

            Year by year, time by time….Lydia and her siblings was growing up and they still schooling until secondary. But all “tragedy” had not end yet….That tragedy really make Lydia’s family life turn from colourful to grey. Lydia’s grandpa was chasing Lydia’s family out from that house that they lived for about 20 years…!!!!!Can u imagine that????Lydia’s dad was paying a lot of money in that house compared to her uncle and when everything was been paid then her cruel grandpa was chasing them out!!!! Her grandma don’t even voice out from stopping. But thanks God is that Lydia’s parents got a new house where the house still under construction..They have no choice but just move into that still under construction new house.

            In year 2008 March 17, Lydia’s family had came to the 2^nd tragedy that happened in her house. It was really a big lost for Lydia’s family as her father had dead in a car accident. Lydia’s family were definitely couldn’t accepted this fact as they lost their beloved father and husband for her mom. Lydia’s grandparents were crying out loud and blaming themselves. Well, this was the consequence that they chasing out Lydia’s family out from that house otherwise her dad will not dead in car accident. BUT ALL THIS COME TOO LATE!!!!No point for them to REGRET as Lydia’s dad was leaving from this land….

            This story is actually about my family….The name of Lydia is actually my name and all these were not a story but is a real life happened on me and my family as well. However, I really thank God for everything. Though my family and I had to overcome all these obstacles but I know God wanted us to learn from the past. Jesus Christ has changed my family life and me as well. So far, 6 of my family members that 4 of us had Baptist but my mother and younger brother also commit to believe in Jesus Christ .Of course, there still another things that I want to clarified here is that because of them who chasing out us & insulting us so much in the past, my sisters and I can gain until university and as well as both of my brothers…

           

《生命之歌》背后的付出

         一位导演，一本完整的剧本，一个舞台，数位演员，数位舞蹈员。。这样一部的《生命之歌》就呈现给上百位观众观赏。。这部戏剧是由我教会的一位弟兄导的，真的是个有天分的一位弟兄。不仅会导，也很会作词和作曲。我也很喜欢戏剧里的每一首歌。

                在筹备这部戏剧的期间，每位演员也很努力的再练习，直到当晚的演出，也是很逼真（值得赞）…虽然，我只是负责灯光，不过控制灯光也并不是很简单。因为，要懂得拿捏TIMING；万一灯光控制不对时候，那么整部戏剧也混乱了。。不过感谢主，因为当晚的灯光控制还算很成功。最难的部分就是，当舞蹈员（FEASIBLE CREW）跳的那部分，因为所跳的是快的舞步，所以灯光必须要一直换颜色，这样才能有更好的效果。当然，也辛苦了后台的工作人员。因为他们必须在每一次换幕时，要用最快的速度搬弄那些道具，所以对我来说也是不简单。更不简单的工作就是，导演。。众人所知，导演的工作就是必须确保每位演员都呈献一部让人感动同时要带出效果的戏剧，是件很不容易的事情。当然，导演的教导，每一位演员都要用心的去吸取经验及教导。那么，演员当然就是要很努力的去背台词。不管台词有多长或很短，我们一旦接了那么重要的任务；我们就必须去实行。既然别人认为我们能演的，那么我们就不能让相信我们有演戏才华的弟兄姐妹失望。我们更不能忘记的一件事，就是我们演出不是为了导演，而是为了我们的大老板呀。。。上帝！！！我们所做的每一件事，有哪一件事不是为上帝而做的呢？就是因为上帝给了导演这个任务，要祂的子民把这任务传遍天下每一个非信徒。。究竟是什么任务？？？就是传福音啊！！！透过戏剧，我们就能INDIRECTLY把福音传给他们；那么你和我就已经为上帝做事工了。。

不过经过一个月内苦练的练习后。终于在星期日那晚，每一位演员都把最好的一次呈献给每位观众。。。当然，也获得了观众的热烈掌声和意见。有些还说：“去年的戏剧布道会很精彩，不过今年的比去年的更精彩、更好看。”这样的一句活，让我们每个人都得到了安慰。我们真的要感谢天父上帝的保守。因为只有祂，我们才能把最好的呈献给他们。

人生有几个几十年？？

        我相信大家都会关注最近发生在吉隆坡的某个地区的青年人为情自杀。。而这位青年人年龄之大我一岁（22岁）。就因为一段没有了结的感情问题而让家人受到了噩耗。其实，我也在面子书上，也在YOUTUBE；阅读了每一位关心那位年轻人的留言。在当中，有的留言时称赞的；当然有些是在批评那位死者。。

                当然我并不赞同江世丰（洋名为ALVIS），也就是死者的做法（当然用自杀来了断自己的确是一件愚蠢的方法，也是解决不了事情的方法之一。）或许,世丰根本都没想到他的死只会令身边的家人及朋友更伤心吗？也许，自杀对这个败坏的社会来说已经是一件很普遍的事件了。哎，我只能说自杀并不能彻底解决事情的。。就算你已经死了，事情依然还存在着。。

                所以说，感情的事；懂得拿起，也要懂得放得下。。就算是很艰苦，仍然还要面对的。感情这一回事，本来就是会有波折的一次，有起有落的时候；并不是每一次都能顺顺利利的过关。。如果连这考验都过不了，那么将来遇到的，即不是更糟糕？？？

                既然你/妳选择了他/她成为你们生命中最重的伴侣，那么更不应该为了鸡毛小事而闹得连自杀不可。我只能对江世丰的作为做个结论：无论遇到人生最坎坷的一次，我们都不可以有自私的一面（也就是自杀的念头）。凡事都会有解决方法。俗语说：“解铃人须系铃人”。。人生有几个几十年，我并不知道；我只知道我们要珍惜我们身边的每一个人，珍惜现在的每一分每一秒，珍惜自己的宝贵生命。。。

死后去哪里？

死后去哪里？？这个问题，我相信每个人都会问自己：“我到底死后会去哪里？”我很确定的告诉我自己，我会回天家，也就是天国那里。。因为我已经得救了（就在我信主的那刻起我就已近得救了。）那你们呢？？你们若相信上帝，我们得真神，那么你就和我一样已经得救了；不过，要我们心里真的相信。

                就在昨天，是蔡良清牧师的出殡之日。在邱牧师的证道及分享当中（说关于蔡牧师所经历三十一年的每一天），就记载在诗篇第九十篇第三节到第五节，这样说到：“你使人归回尘土，说：“世人哪！你们要归回尘土。”在你看来，前年好像刚过去的昨天，又像夜里的一更。你使世人消失，像被洪水冲去；他们好像睡了一觉。。。就是这句金句“他们好像睡了”。。。蔡牧师也一样，其实他只是睡了一觉，因为蔡牧师在世时，劳碌了三十年，上帝让他休息一会儿。。其实，我们每一位基督徒也如此，我们的离世，不是我们永远都死了，而是暂时睡一觉，因为我们会复活，到我们父（也就是上帝那里）那里去；因为那里才是我们永远的家，而世上的一切只是暂时的，都带不回天家那里；就算你在世上拥有一大堆财富，财产。。这一些都是你们在世上暂时享受的东西。。就像最近我家里发生的就是在挣家产（是我爸爸的）。。我爸那方的人（公、婆、四位叔叔和一位姑姑），只因为我爸爸那么一点的家产就和我们五兄弟姐妹及我妈闹得鸡犬不宁，天翻地乱。。其实，我们六个人根本都不想要那些不属于我们的东西，而我的亲戚他们却一直要那份家产。我们就告诉我妈，既然他们那么想拥有那份一点的家产，那么我们就圆他们心愿吧！因为身位基督徒的我们，都明白了解，家产和在世上的一切都是暂时的东西，是带不回天家的。。不过感谢主的是，一切都有了个了断。。

                人，终会有死的一天。。不过，问题就是我们明白清楚我们死后会去哪里吗？？所以，我想借着这机会告诉你们，信耶稣真的很好，因为上帝，耶稣才是我们生命中的救主，我们生命中的真神，因为耶稣是死而复活的主。信耶稣准没错。。。AMEN。。。

我的人生

 每个人的人生都会有一个第一次，不过他们的第一次应该是高兴的。我的呢。。却是有惊无险的一次，那就是我的手指被缝了两针。这一次真的把我吓倒无话可说。为什么呢？因为平常切菜或砍鸡肉都不会砍到自己的手指的，怎知道这一次回来要煮道菜隔日家人，却反回来让家人煮给我吃（因为手指受伤了，无法切菜煮了）。不过，在这几天的疗伤，好在我家里有位护士每天帮我敷药的大姐，也帮我的伤口治疗到很好，所以我的伤口才能那么快敷衍。

                说到第一次，除了这次的受伤之外，我之前很珍惜的一份友情也在一瞬间便成了只能擦肩而过的朋友；见到面也只能聊关于功课上的话题，功课意外的事情，也成了一个界限。也许是误会，让我们便成了如此，不过,我保证不会有下一次了。自从这件事发生之后，我更小心地对待我每一位朋友。但是，我觉得做朋友最好不要有私心，意思是说，不要利用你身边的朋友。虽然很多人告诉我说，朋友呢，好听来说是互相帮忙，不好听来说是互相利用。我赞成前半句，却不赞成后半句。对我来说，朋友最像我们家里的兄弟姐妹一样，有心事就有地方哭诉；有开心的事就一起分享;而不是那种，无事不登三宝殿的朋友。有事情就来找朋友，没事时就不睬人。这样的朋友对我来说，根本都不会好好珍惜朋友的人。还有一次，我有位朋友，之前我和她是要好的朋友，不过让我很惊讶又失望的一件事是，他根本都没望着我和我说话。我心里想着，那么我和她之前的友情是白交的吗？我真的摸不着他们心里到底是怎么想着的。

                有时候，我心里想：“问题倒底出现在哪里？是他们的问题呢？还是我自己本身的问题？”就是在那犹豫不决的时候，我就来到上帝的面前，用谦卑的心，祷告上帝。我告诉上帝说：“上帝，如果真的是我的问题的话，那么求上帝帮助我，因为我就是那么的软弱；有时候，我自己做错事，我自己也不知道，就这样得罪了朋友。上帝，求你怜悯我的过犯。。不过，如果是他们的问题，求上帝也帮助他/她们，让他们有宽容的心，接待每一个人。阿门。”就这样一个简单的祷告，让我心里有了安慰。因为我知道上帝会帮助我，帮我脱离这一切困难。。

           虽然我失去了两位我曾经那么珍惜的一份友情，不过我依然当她们是我的朋友。（即使他们接受不了我了，我依然会为他们祷告。希望有一天能看见他们和我在天家相遇）但是，如今的我也多了很多朋友。。我也相信这一切是上帝的安排。。因为我的救主是复活得主，是永远存在的主。。。