原来他们就是这样的。。。人心难测。。

               我还记得，每当我们每一次考试时，教授就会（偶尔）给我们一切提示。单纯的我们，就会和其他人分享。这样，我们两年的友情就渐渐的不变陌生，反而更加要好。事事难预料，两年后的他们，却和两年前的他们不同了。人心真的难测呀！！！
               为何我这样说呢？就在最近的考试来打个比喻吧。我们班的教授真的很“诚实”，因为他们并不会给提示。不过，其它班的教授因为来不及赶完索要考得题目，所以就顺便给了答案（考试的答案）。让我很气的是，就算平时和我们很好的朋友，都不会透露给我们知道。这简直就是太过分了。
             不过，他们如此的对待我们。没关系，因为得到益处的事我们。。为什么呢？因为呢，我们是靠实力的（真的很气人嘞！！！）。不过，我知道凡事都看开点。就算他们这样，我们也阻止不了他们的作为。。（算了，想到这些，我真的对他们很失望！！）真的休想我会很好心的帮他们了。。。不会有下一次了。。

不一样的新年

              不一样的新年。。。为何今年的新年那么特别呢？因为我二姐今年终于回来和我们一家团聚了。。前三年因为她的假期比较短，所以无法抽空时间回来古晋过年。今年的过年对我妈妈来说，真是个快乐年。虽然没有亲戚的看顾和来往，我们一家六口都活得比他们更快乐更好。对我来说，没有了他们，并不代表我们不能活。因为一直以来他们都没把我们当成是他们的一家人；即使之前我们对他们和和气气，他们却对我们不理不睬的。（不说他们了，越谈起他们，我就越生气了。）
            在除夕夜，我们一家人就一起吃团圆饭。而且今年我们也流行“捞生”。我们捞得太刺激了，因为是我们第一次在新年期间捞生。。我们五兄弟姐妹都很期待放鞭炮的时刻。。等啊等，终于等到了晚上十二点。。鞭炮声就一家接一家放个不完，气氛十足。不过，在弟弟放鞭炮的当儿，让我顿时想起了我爸爸在三年前（还在世时），他放鞭炮的样子和那熟悉的背影，真的忘不了。（爸，我真的很想念您..)到了大年初一，我们家OPEN HOUSE ，所以就等朋友们的到来。那天真的是忙透了。客人有如鱼贯般，来拜年。我，大姐，二姐，都忙着准备食物给客人吃；而妈妈则负责招待客人。那气氛实在太好了，虽然有点忙，不过想起来当天的情形，真的很愉快。
          今年的过年真的很难忘。不但能和五兄弟姐妹一起打扫屋子，也和妈妈一起做年糕。真的是一个愉快的新年。。

我的古晋最要好的朋友

我二姐和妈妈看顾的小女孩

我和两位可爱的小妹妹

我和SHEILA

两姐妹，EIRENE 和SHEILA

            

今年2011年能顺利地度过，那么2010年的新年又如何呢？

        其实，今年的新年都和往年一样地度过，不过，是二姐也回来一家团聚（她又数年没回来过新年了）；我想，最高兴的当然是我妈妈。因为，我们五兄弟姐妹和她可以一家团圆，虽然爸爸已经不在了，不过我们依然还会记得当年他有在时候的气氛。既然，我们都回来和妈妈一起过新年，当然要过个大肥年。。哈哈哈哈哈！！！
       2011年能这样开心地度过，那么2012年又如何呢？我们都知道，2012年是末日的到来。也就是说，耶稣基督的到来将近了。。对我们基督徒来说，并不是件害怕的事，因为我们终于可以回到我们的真正的家园。当每个人谈到世界末日时，并不是每个人都相信。不相信什么呢？他们不相信有世界末日这个事情。不过，我真信的确有这回事。因为，圣经里有说道，耶稣会再来。。。。当然，我们作基督徒的，其实都有很重要的任务在身。。而且，是很大的任务。那就是，传福音。。说到传福音，我自己本人有时候，的确很难和身边的朋友传福音。原因在于，大门大致上都是佛教徒或是FREE THINKER 。其实，我经历过和我的朋友传福音。不过，在我传的当时，我们会有争执的一面。我并不是说他们说相信的是不好的。我只是要他们弄明白谁才是我们真正的真神，谁才是我们生命中的救主。。所以，每次我传的时候，我都必须向主祷告，好让我在传的时候没有任何的阻拦。。不过，我并不会放弃传福音，我一定要把我身边的每一位朋友得救。。让他/她们知道耶稣基督才是他们的救主。。。

2011 .a brand new year

2O11...2011 is a brand new year to every1 of us.I do hope everything will run smoothly throughout this year especially in my academy.I do hope that this semenster i will able to get what i wish to get for the past few semenster.Of course,CNY(CHINESE NEW YEAR) is in the corner for every chinese.Every time when this day come ,i definitely will think of my beloved dad who left us 3 & half years ago ( will become 4 year after this coming 17 March 2010).I believed my siblings too including my mom.I still remembered when i was a kid ,my dad will paint our house with new paint (He actually is a painter. & our house became brand new house after the painted.Beside that, my dad played firecrackers with 5 of us (it was a memorable time for 5 of us)...That is why every time when my neighbours played firecrackers ,i will think of my dad..even it was a raining day my dad wont care so much he still played firecrackers(Long one) cz he wanted to bring joy to 5 of us including my mom.
   Papa,we miss u so much.Me,ah ting,ah b,ah boy n ah cheng do hope u still around us.Papa if u were here,u will fry prawn to us,played firecrackers with ah boy n ah cheng,u will paint the house and will bring us everywhere.Though u'r not here with us but u owes in our heart.Bcz u are our dad,a responsible dad ,a dad who always care us so much together with mama....Papa,we love u:-)

My dad & Yang Yang

About me..myself..my childhood time

            Well, it’s really weird to write something about my life here but I believe not much people know me well even my past life. Since I decided to write something about myself here so there is nothing that I could hide. 1^st of all, I would like to begin with a story telling which it was about a girl who had overcome all those obstacles that she’d faced since she was a baby girl. This girl named Lydia. Lydia was born in 1989 in a big family. Actually, there were about 14 family members lived in that small house that time which most of them were Lydia’s dad siblings. Perhaps before I continue to the next sentence, all of you might think that Lydia’s was come from a big and happiness family. In fact, her life was not as happy as you think. Why I said so?? Because her grandparents were totally not happy with Lydia’s family presence. Lydia really have no idea why her grandparents especially her grandpa was not happy with their presence until now. Lydia actually was in the centred of 5 of the children. Her father was just a painter which couldn’t earn much so her mother got an idea to become a baby sitter to take care of neighbour’s kids.

            However, Lydia’s family life still remains the same as her grandpa didn’t like them so much. Every time when Lydia’s eldest sisters wanted to have their revision at LIVING ROOM, her grandpa was walking down the stairs without sound. Can u imagine that scene???I’m guarantee u’ll really scared of this kind of action. Do u know the reason her grandpa came down???U will never know how cruel was this grandpa is……He was switching off all the light around the living room even the whole house. Really a cruel grandpa!!!!He also a selfish grandpa..why I said so??Becz he likes Lydia’s cousin more than Lydia’s sibling and Lydia. Every time when Lydia’s aunty (her father’s sister) came to their house, her grandpa always insulting Lydia’s family. Do u know what he said? He said to Lydia’s sibling: “ aiya,no need so rajin to study lar….u can’t even can study until higher education…What for so hardworking study during primary time??hahahaha.(He using Hokkien to say them)” Well, if u are Lydia’s mother or father, what is ur reaction towards these words???Lydia’s mothers still not giving up raising them up until higher education and so her father.

            Year by year, time by time….Lydia and her siblings was growing up and they still schooling until secondary. But all “tragedy” had not end yet….That tragedy really make Lydia’s family life turn from colourful to grey. Lydia’s grandpa was chasing Lydia’s family out from that house that they lived for about 20 years…!!!!!Can u imagine that????Lydia’s dad was paying a lot of money in that house compared to her uncle and when everything was been paid then her cruel grandpa was chasing them out!!!! Her grandma don’t even voice out from stopping. But thanks God is that Lydia’s parents got a new house where the house still under construction..They have no choice but just move into that still under construction new house.

            In year 2008 March 17, Lydia’s family had came to the 2^nd tragedy that happened in her house. It was really a big lost for Lydia’s family as her father had dead in a car accident. Lydia’s family were definitely couldn’t accepted this fact as they lost their beloved father and husband for her mom. Lydia’s grandparents were crying out loud and blaming themselves. Well, this was the consequence that they chasing out Lydia’s family out from that house otherwise her dad will not dead in car accident. BUT ALL THIS COME TOO LATE!!!!No point for them to REGRET as Lydia’s dad was leaving from this land….

            This story is actually about my family….The name of Lydia is actually my name and all these were not a story but is a real life happened on me and my family as well. However, I really thank God for everything. Though my family and I had to overcome all these obstacles but I know God wanted us to learn from the past. Jesus Christ has changed my family life and me as well. So far, 6 of my family members that 4 of us had Baptist but my mother and younger brother also commit to believe in Jesus Christ .Of course, there still another things that I want to clarified here is that because of them who chasing out us & insulting us so much in the past, my sisters and I can gain until university and as well as both of my brothers…

           

《生命之歌》背后的付出

         一位导演，一本完整的剧本，一个舞台，数位演员，数位舞蹈员。。这样一部的《生命之歌》就呈现给上百位观众观赏。。这部戏剧是由我教会的一位弟兄导的，真的是个有天分的一位弟兄。不仅会导，也很会作词和作曲。我也很喜欢戏剧里的每一首歌。

                在筹备这部戏剧的期间，每位演员也很努力的再练习，直到当晚的演出，也是很逼真（值得赞）…虽然，我只是负责灯光，不过控制灯光也并不是很简单。因为，要懂得拿捏TIMING；万一灯光控制不对时候，那么整部戏剧也混乱了。。不过感谢主，因为当晚的灯光控制还算很成功。最难的部分就是，当舞蹈员（FEASIBLE CREW）跳的那部分，因为所跳的是快的舞步，所以灯光必须要一直换颜色，这样才能有更好的效果。当然，也辛苦了后台的工作人员。因为他们必须在每一次换幕时，要用最快的速度搬弄那些道具，所以对我来说也是不简单。更不简单的工作就是，导演。。众人所知，导演的工作就是必须确保每位演员都呈献一部让人感动同时要带出效果的戏剧，是件很不容易的事情。当然，导演的教导，每一位演员都要用心的去吸取经验及教导。那么，演员当然就是要很努力的去背台词。不管台词有多长或很短，我们一旦接了那么重要的任务；我们就必须去实行。既然别人认为我们能演的，那么我们就不能让相信我们有演戏才华的弟兄姐妹失望。我们更不能忘记的一件事，就是我们演出不是为了导演，而是为了我们的大老板呀。。。上帝！！！我们所做的每一件事，有哪一件事不是为上帝而做的呢？就是因为上帝给了导演这个任务，要祂的子民把这任务传遍天下每一个非信徒。。究竟是什么任务？？？就是传福音啊！！！透过戏剧，我们就能INDIRECTLY把福音传给他们；那么你和我就已经为上帝做事工了。。

不过经过一个月内苦练的练习后。终于在星期日那晚，每一位演员都把最好的一次呈献给每位观众。。。当然，也获得了观众的热烈掌声和意见。有些还说：“去年的戏剧布道会很精彩，不过今年的比去年的更精彩、更好看。”这样的一句活，让我们每个人都得到了安慰。我们真的要感谢天父上帝的保守。因为只有祂，我们才能把最好的呈献给他们。

人生有几个几十年？？

        我相信大家都会关注最近发生在吉隆坡的某个地区的青年人为情自杀。。而这位青年人年龄之大我一岁（22岁）。就因为一段没有了结的感情问题而让家人受到了噩耗。其实，我也在面子书上，也在YOUTUBE；阅读了每一位关心那位年轻人的留言。在当中，有的留言时称赞的；当然有些是在批评那位死者。。

                当然我并不赞同江世丰（洋名为ALVIS），也就是死者的做法（当然用自杀来了断自己的确是一件愚蠢的方法，也是解决不了事情的方法之一。）或许,世丰根本都没想到他的死只会令身边的家人及朋友更伤心吗？也许，自杀对这个败坏的社会来说已经是一件很普遍的事件了。哎，我只能说自杀并不能彻底解决事情的。。就算你已经死了，事情依然还存在着。。

                所以说，感情的事；懂得拿起，也要懂得放得下。。就算是很艰苦，仍然还要面对的。感情这一回事，本来就是会有波折的一次，有起有落的时候；并不是每一次都能顺顺利利的过关。。如果连这考验都过不了，那么将来遇到的，即不是更糟糕？？？

                既然你/妳选择了他/她成为你们生命中最重的伴侣，那么更不应该为了鸡毛小事而闹得连自杀不可。我只能对江世丰的作为做个结论：无论遇到人生最坎坷的一次，我们都不可以有自私的一面（也就是自杀的念头）。凡事都会有解决方法。俗语说：“解铃人须系铃人”。。人生有几个几十年，我并不知道；我只知道我们要珍惜我们身边的每一个人，珍惜现在的每一分每一秒，珍惜自己的宝贵生命。。。