我的人生

 每个人的人生都会有一个第一次，不过他们的第一次应该是高兴的。我的呢。。却是有惊无险的一次，那就是我的手指被缝了两针。这一次真的把我吓倒无话可说。为什么呢？因为平常切菜或砍鸡肉都不会砍到自己的手指的，怎知道这一次回来要煮道菜隔日家人，却反回来让家人煮给我吃（因为手指受伤了，无法切菜煮了）。不过，在这几天的疗伤，好在我家里有位护士每天帮我敷药的大姐，也帮我的伤口治疗到很好，所以我的伤口才能那么快敷衍。

                说到第一次，除了这次的受伤之外，我之前很珍惜的一份友情也在一瞬间便成了只能擦肩而过的朋友；见到面也只能聊关于功课上的话题，功课意外的事情，也成了一个界限。也许是误会，让我们便成了如此，不过,我保证不会有下一次了。自从这件事发生之后，我更小心地对待我每一位朋友。但是，我觉得做朋友最好不要有私心，意思是说，不要利用你身边的朋友。虽然很多人告诉我说，朋友呢，好听来说是互相帮忙，不好听来说是互相利用。我赞成前半句，却不赞成后半句。对我来说，朋友最像我们家里的兄弟姐妹一样，有心事就有地方哭诉；有开心的事就一起分享;而不是那种，无事不登三宝殿的朋友。有事情就来找朋友，没事时就不睬人。这样的朋友对我来说，根本都不会好好珍惜朋友的人。还有一次，我有位朋友，之前我和她是要好的朋友，不过让我很惊讶又失望的一件事是，他根本都没望着我和我说话。我心里想着，那么我和她之前的友情是白交的吗？我真的摸不着他们心里到底是怎么想着的。

                有时候，我心里想：“问题倒底出现在哪里？是他们的问题呢？还是我自己本身的问题？”就是在那犹豫不决的时候，我就来到上帝的面前，用谦卑的心，祷告上帝。我告诉上帝说：“上帝，如果真的是我的问题的话，那么求上帝帮助我，因为我就是那么的软弱；有时候，我自己做错事，我自己也不知道，就这样得罪了朋友。上帝，求你怜悯我的过犯。。不过，如果是他们的问题，求上帝也帮助他/她们，让他们有宽容的心，接待每一个人。阿门。”就这样一个简单的祷告，让我心里有了安慰。因为我知道上帝会帮助我，帮我脱离这一切困难。。

           虽然我失去了两位我曾经那么珍惜的一份友情，不过我依然当她们是我的朋友。（即使他们接受不了我了，我依然会为他们祷告。希望有一天能看见他们和我在天家相遇）但是，如今的我也多了很多朋友。。我也相信这一切是上帝的安排。。因为我的救主是复活得主，是永远存在的主。。。

有惊无险的一次

昨天，也就是二零一零年十一月二十七日的中午，我左手的第一只手指，流了不停的鲜血；我心里想着，这次肯定完了！！我的手指呀！！其实，那时候我砍着肉，哪知道连手指也看下去。。我痛得真的说不出话来，我嘴里只是告诉我家人，我的手指快要断裂了（但实际上还没砍到手指的骨，所以还不至于断裂）。我心里第一件事想到的是祷告上帝。我告诉上帝，求上帝保住我这只手指。我妈妈也吓得脸青唇白，脚也在发抖。过后，妈妈也立刻带我到政府医院。一路上，我只能祷告上帝。除了祂，没有人能医治我手指的那剧痛。。不过要感恩的事是，我的手指还能动，这表示我的手指还不是出于严重的状况。

                过后，到达医院之后，我大姐（她是位女护士）也已经到了那里，就立刻到我到办手续处，过后就是缝伤口的时候了。。我看着Medical Assistant帮我把伤口清理后，就要注射麻醉针了。不是注射一次就行了，而是三次（不过是同一只手指，注射不同的位置）。当MA注射每一针时，我的心就揪了起来。当他注射酒后一针时，我能感觉到我的那手指完全是FULL OF麻醉药。过了几分钟后，就没感觉了。即使MA在缝的时候，我也没有任何知觉。我并没把眼睛盖上，反而看着那MA缝的每一针。

         
                 其实，我现在真的能体会到耶稣基督在世上时，被钉的那双手的剧痛。。那同只能的让人无法去忍受。。我这样的状况就受不了了，何况是双手被钉。。我真的要感恩。。如果不是上帝的帮助，我想我肯定无法用镇定的心来忍受这样的痛（也许，被砍到的那时刻，我已经晕倒了） 。不过，也要感谢上帝，让我家里有位护士（我大姐）在我家中。。所以，我现在的伤口都是我姐帮我敷药及包扎伤口。虽然，半夜手指会有点痛，不过我依然要感谢上帝，因为只是那小小的痛而已。。这也让我体会到，不管是我们身上的小器官或手指头，都要好好的保护及爱护。

               

Friendship (Part 2)

I'm just came back form church & there something pop out from my mind...God telling me that i have to go through everything regardless sweet or bad memory.Well,i really faced all these since i was in 1st semenster in UMP.I did know who were my truly friend & who r not.Friendship is last forever & it will not reach to the end.Honestly to tell that i really had a lots of sweet memory this semenster compared to last two semenster.Perhaps because my buddies brought a lots of fun to me.Especially to C.K.Actually i dont really close to C.K at 1st but after i moved to my recent hostel n we became buddy & he did helped me a lots as well as to C.Y & C.S,3 of them really helped me in semenster.I would like to say is my pleasure to know 3 of them n we really became buddies.I couldn't denied that all these thing happened on me because of GOD,The almighty Lord...Though i had lost two very closed friend but i could understood why they did so..Perhaps they do not really know me well & there is a misunderstand which i really dont know how to solve so i just pray to God .In my prayer,i told God that forgave what i had did to my friends which I ever hurt them b4.I dont asked for forgiveness but as long as they felt happy with their life now then i will always pray for them too(though they are non christian).                                          
                                                                                                                                  

(To be continue...)

My life in 2010

Time past too fast cz it come to end of 2010.Well,2010 brought me a lots of happiness rather than sadness.Happiness of course were i met a lots of juniors (considered as my friends too..hehe).Though we came from different corner of this world but we still could mixed well to each other without limitation ( I could act as crazy as i wanted to...hehe).Though there was a difference of age between  us but that not the obstacles for us to mix well...I will not mention who are them but u know who i'm talking about...Lol..

One more thing is that from a normal friend we could become so Ngam Keng friends(friends that can chat a lot)..They are CK,CS and CY...(so coincidence all alphabet is C..)and WK as well.They helped me a lots this whole semenster & i really appreciate their help n is my pleasure to become their friends too...no matter what happened we still can become good friends until forever.Of course all this was arranged by Almighty God that let me to meet them and learned a lots of things from them ( only good things i accepted) ..hehe...

The happiest moment or day are that both of my sisters finally graduates this year after 4 years of their degree study  & of course all hard work had been paid off too..They are my mothers's pride when witnessed both of my sister's convocation.I knew it was a tough task or job for my mother to grow us until university & witnessed 5 of us in the rest of her life.

When comes to sadness thing..it reflected to my family...I felt so sorry to my family cz i couldn't b with them when things happened to my family...It supposed to be my responsibility as well to share together but i didn't make it as i was part of my family.However, i will always pray for them as i was far away from them .They always in my prayer as i know God will protect them from bully by "people" and always stay happiness in            Jesus's Christ family.Amen

My great time (Happiest time i ever had for my outing)

Des,Kelly,me,Parker & Louis

Wow,great ! great!GREAT!what so Great for me??I spent my precious outing time with my 4 buddies who are Kelly Ong,Des,Parker and Louis as well.They made me crazy whole day.We sing k,dinner n lunch 2gather,played sand at TC..

Louis,how come u suddenly u become so short????

.Honestly to tell that i never step into K-room where yesterday was my 1st time to step into K-room n sing til like crazy girl(only 4 of them know hw crazy am i in the k-room),Tough the songs that we sang were so CLASSIC(some old songs) but we sing like Monkey eat chili(mean we sing till no more image edi..haha) .Yesterday time i cant expected i could be so crazy n so so relax ( Sing k really can let me forget those unhappy things that troublesome me recent day) ..Especially Kelly Ong( 贝壳妹）

Kelly & Me

,we bom her for so many time but she don even care (dat mean that she really had a great time spent with us without any worry n tension),Kelly did a good things as she know hw to release her tension for this outing..Louis (小肚腩）,he  is a great driver n nice friend to mix with.

Me & Louis,the funniest guy...

Though we r junior n senior but for us, there no JUNiOR & SENIOR  in our DICTIONARY,mean dat we can become so good friend in such short period of time.Yesterday was my 1st time to listen to Louis's voice to sing a song especially the HOkkien Song "一百万"..we all like so high n we sang together with him in the same time...Parker who is a nice friend too n funny as well.Des who is a nice and friendly too(great in singing as well)..

Me & Des,potential future singer..

During our dinner time,we chat a lot (but i cant tell what were our chatting content..is secret for 5 of us... ;p)from their conversation,i felt like we all had experienced same situation.I do hope that  5 of us still can spend time outing 2gather once again.I would like to use this opportunity to thank to 4 of u who make me so crazy yesterday n willing to spend half day to hav fun 2gather..Remember:We are not junior n senior but we are friends without care of this calling...

Me & Parker,the cute cute buddy

Louis & Kelly

Kelly, me,Des & Louis

My sister(Ivy)Convocation Photo - USM

3 good sisters(My mom's pride)

Me & my sis

My mom  & sis

Family Photo

                                      

My family & her students

Can u see where was the cap???

Birthday

Birthday....when u think of this word,what come to ur mind? I will think of my own birthday time and also my friends birthday.One thing i felt so curious about it.I do not mean to mention it or request to remember my birthday or celebrate with me.I felt so disappointed when i realize it.Well,i do remember all my friend's birthday especially my close friends but do they really remember my birthday without facebook reminder? I did bought presents for them i mean it was really a nice presents.But actually i don asked for any present but do they really know is birthday?Of course wishes is more precious.

MY BIRTHDAY cake (2010)

However,i did really happy could celebrated with my family though not with my friends.Family always the best for me because no matter how busy r them ,they still remember my birthday.Actually tell honestly i do hope my friends will celebrate my birthday with me but very unlucky is my birthday always fall during holiday.But wishes is more than enough actually.I shoudn't complaint again .I should appreciate everything.I mean though my friends not remember my birthday but at least my family remember it.

That really feel so touched...haha...mama,ah ting,ah boy,ah cheng and ah b,all of u r the best..I LOVE ALL OF U SO MUCH:-)