121214-----一个我永远都记得的日期《生病记》

121214，早上三点，我全身不知怎的，突然发抖。冷得不得了。我心里想着，这次不是那么倒霉中了瘟疫吧？那感觉真的很难受；简直就是很想离开这里。在那一瞬间，我眼泪掉了；我哭了，因为这一次的生病，没有我妈妈在我身旁；没人递给我药物吃；没人问问我到底怎么啦；还会觉得很冷吗。。等等。。。每一年的十二月我肯定会生一次大病，而且一病就要三四天才会康复。生病期间，真的要感谢神，因为惠婷姐妹和她的姐姐一同送我去诊疗所看病，后来我的病情也好转了一些。真的神一直都在看顾我，一直呵护我。去年的那一天，我根本都不需要担心没药吃，因为都在古晋，有妈妈的照顾；反而，今年我却来到沙登，没妈妈在身边，又是开始要独立的时候了。如果能把我妈妈带来，我肯定把我妈妈接过来。呵呵呵。。。。

如何看待你珍贵的生命

                      最近有好几宗关于自杀来了断自己那宝贵的生命。大部分的都是少年人。请问，你对自己的生命有何看法？它对你而言重要吗？这问题肯定会有人回答，当然很重要。那么，你到底对自己的生命有多了解？关于这一点，我真的可以很确定的告诉你们。生命对我来说，是多么的重要啊！！！我也要郑重的告诉你们，我的生命是上帝给我的！这一切都是真实的，并无一丝一毫的谎言。

                   我还记得半年前,也就是5月10日。我发生了一场我难以忘怀的车祸。如果不是上帝的保守，我很肯定我已经不在人世了，也不会在这里和大家分享这一切。至于车祸的经过我就不多说了。我只想说，当车子撞到GUARD RAIL时，我乘坐的那辆车简直就是失控了。整辆车子就是四脚朝天的（撞了路旁两边的铁窗，就这样翻了）。就在车子翻转的时候，我只记得想，这下怎么办，车子翻了！！我脑袋一直想着我的家人，就是那种很混乱的感觉。但是，奇怪的是，我和我弟弟竟然没事。我们俩真的一点骨折或重伤都没有。所以，我真的相信这一切都是神的保守及看顾。对路人而言，在车子里面的我们，不是重伤就是死亡。奇迹的就是，我和我弟真的一点伤痛都没有。

                      这事情发生的几天后，我对我自己说，既然上帝给了我机会活着，那我就要活得更加喜乐，更加爱惜自己的生命。生命，一旦真的丢了，就永远不会再回来；就算你拥有多么多金钱，却于事无补。所以，现在的我更加爱惜自己，更加觉得生命得来不易。

当我读了那些关于自杀事件的新闻，真的很心痛。好好的一个生命，就这样为了感情或因为课业的压抑，而了断自己的生命。这行为真的太愚蠢了。不但带给家人心痛，也造成社会的困扰。的确会反映出一个让人觉得，生命好像一个玩意儿。如有这想法的，我确实的告诉也警告你们，千万不要拿自己的生命开玩笑。这一点也不好笑！

                                      爱惜生命，犹如神爱我们一样。

A new life begin after 4th September 2014----> Master Student's life

               Wow, I'd been a pretty long time not update my blog here and today I'm gonna to tell a story of my life after a hardship that I'd gone through this past half year. First of all, I would like to show my appreciation to my family especially my mom who so supportive towards my Master study here in UPM (Universiti Putra Malaysia). Next, Is God who giving me an opportunity to experienced a Master Life here. Friendly Speaking that the decision to study here was truly bothered me so much. However, I will not telling the reason why it bothering me much. Still I'm glad to be here in Serdang. 

               Well, I had really learnt lots of new knownledge here. There are so much new things that I learnt here and really awakening me after all. I'm taking Master of  Environmental Engineering so most of the time I need to study more on Environment and i found out that it is really an interesting course to learn. For instance, The Summit Compenhagen which I never knew that it is a big issue that related to the world's pollution or matter that to be concerned all over the world. Well, I do enjoy study here in UPM. Nevertheless, I met a lots of new friends here in Serdang . I believe that there is a reason why God put me here and I love God's planning as HE gave all the best one to me. I love YOU, God. Without God in my life I am nothing at all. HE is the one who change me to a better person and guide me all my life. God, thanks for YOUR sacrificed. 

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER, JESUS! 

A mystery of disappear of MH370

It's come to 3rd Day and still MH370 not been found yet among the rescue team and the involve of authorities from all over the world. Also, it became the most hottest issue/ news over the world. So, where is the flight gone?? I believe everyone in the earth still wondering where exactly the flight flew away? Or  it was the terrorist's planning from the very beginning? Sound so ridiculous as everything comes too coincidence. I hope everything will be fine after a week. I know that Lord has save everyone of them. Have FAITH in HIM. No matter how bad is the situation we just wait patiently. We will know the very best answer soon. Do not spread out any unreliable news or rumurs to hurt the passengers' family as they need some space to calm down. My sense tell me that all the passengers in flight MH370 will be save.

Working life doesn't seem to be enjoyable for me??!!!-----> Part I

Is 2014 now and almost a year I didn't managed to update my blog after my last sem in UMP in October 2013. Time flies extremely fast which I still unable to digest all I had experienced in KUANTAN for my 4 years degree here. So, I'm now a working people. However, thing doesn't goes well as I expected.
 Although I had tried my very best to help the company ( my previous company) to be in track however they didn't appreciated with what I had done or to be said contributed to the company. Scolded by clients, complaint by clients...all these I had to settle by myself without my employer HELP. Unnecessary people came to complaint about my working performance. If he or she had witnessed everything in this company then I had nothing to say but yet he or she just an outsider who know nothing but know to insulting me and complaint me to my family members. I didn't do anything harmful to company yet they tried to destroy my reputation then I really have nothing to say. Keep silent will always the best choice for me to not creating any unnecessary problems again. Betrayed also happened here. I shouldn't trust anyone easily in this company. That 's my weakness and I admit it. In short, I will not trust anyone so easily or I supposed to say no gossiping, no gang, no POLITIC in company if still want to have an excellence result or market in Construction Industry. Disappointment will be the best word to describe my best feeling towards my previous company. I not doing any harmful matter to your company but help out to let your company to be the honest company that people will trust much but yet you rejected my help so I really don't know what to say but just wish best of luck to you.

Listen! Listen! Listen!

       Listen (X10)...Sharifah who did that to an UUM undergraduate student who voice out her opinion to the public but consequently been stopped and humiliated by Sharifah who was the one didn't even showed a little mean of respect to Bawani. This situation really showed that there are still some of the people really mean..In my own point of view, Sharifah shud filter everything before she pointed her own view to Bawani. She supposedly learned to accept ppl's opinion and listened to public before they ended. Sharifah kept on saying Bawani lack of education but did she realised that she was the one who lack of education based on what she had thrown the words to Bawani??? Everywhere also have degree students. Even Master holder student also will show manner in front of public but Sharifah just a degree student but she acted like she has high level in her education. Only one words could describe her attitude " BRAINLESS" and "So Mean"...

Hello ,2013!!!

              Wow, I'd been quite a long time didn't updated my blog here. Well, now comes to 2013 which is a brand new year for me as well as my final year in UMP. I had so much words to express here but it take a long time to write here . Anyway, I will shorten it..Hehehe...
                 Though I can't have my precious time to spend together with my beloved mom n siblings in Kuching but I felt so grateful of one thing. That was my mom. She finally has accepted Jesus Christ to enter her life. This was a great news to me which also one of my 2013 wishes. Lord, thanks for everything that U gave to me. I know that all these not come in coincident but U are the one who made all these happen possibly. My dad had left us for almost 4 years. Although sometime I would think of the sweetest time I had spent with my dad in previous day and tears dropped down but I know all these happened for a reason. The day he passed away did made me stand strong. From that moment onward, I knew that it would become a hard time for 5 of us including my mom to overcome all these for a short moment. However, we had overcome all these hardship as I knew all these because of the Almighty Lord who protects , guide us all the time. I miss u so much,Dad :-(
                 Friends...I knew there were few friends that who always there with me all the time regardless my happiest moment or even my hard time. In fact, they never left me away. They hold my hand tight to make me warmer. Thanks to my friends who helped me all these while. Friends, u know who u are...U guys are the best to me & friendship will never end. U guys brought a lots of joy to me as well as "things" that I never exposed before in my life..hahahaha..Explored something crazy had really tighten our friendship. Boys & Girls, U guys really made me forget who am I actually..hahaha....Kidding :-) Anyway, I really had enjoying the craziest, happiest moment with all of u ...