Saturday, February 25, 2012

苦中有喜乐

         三年前的一个下午,我就这样失去了一个抚养我长大的爸爸。从那时刻起,家里就少了一个成员。虽然那时候的我,心里真的很难受,很煎熬,但是祂的存在让我真的感到安慰。让我感受到,其实我并不是一个人的。上帝的扶持和安慰,的确让我知道生命的意义。上帝陪我度过了生命中的酸甜苦辣。不管是开心的,伤心地,我都会和上帝述说,因为是祂让我经历这一切事情。要不是因为这一切事情,我真的无法变得更独立,更坚强。朋友都说,我是个女强人,但是事实上我是个内心软弱的一个人。当然,我不会随意的表露出来。不管遇到感情上的挫折,或是生活上的挫折,只要来到上帝的面前,我自然而然的,心情就好起来了。
      老实说,我并不适合或没资格去喜欢一个人。因为,我往往都是那失败者。在这几年里,喜欢的人,当然是有的。但是,事情就好象剧情里一样,我喜欢的那个人,他不喜欢我。这就是为什么我宁愿爱自己多一点,爱上帝更多一点,也不把任何希望放在喜欢的人身上。只要我很满足现在的生活,我觉得这一切都胜过任何一样事情。圣经里说道,我们学习要知足。这就是我生命中,苦中带来喜乐。

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Cherating 2 day one night trip


                Cherating ..at 1st i don really noe where izit but after been thr n i felt like it was a nice place to pay a visit. It was a trip where 10 of us went thr to have a big gathering ,stayed in one medium challet but it felt great as all of us could get closer to each other juz in a short time. I couldn't believed that i could watched fire flies in silent night with 10 of them..It was really an interesting n memorable night to me. One thing that i couldn't forgot was that i got drunk dat night juz only 6% alcohol drink n made me vomit that night..really a funny night with  9 of them.  We able to get close to each other n our friendship become more closer . I will not forgot the sweetest time with all of u..I'm so glad to have all of u  in my life. 

Monday, February 13, 2012

我的生命是祂给的

           或许别人会问我,为何我的生命是祂给的呢?所谓的祂,不是男的他,也不是女的她, 而是天父上帝,主耶稣基督给我的生命。如果不是祂,就没有今天的我。我生命所发生的一切事情,都是祂的保守及看顾。然而,我真的很感恩,因为自从认识了主耶稣基督后,我今天所拥有的一切都是上帝赐给我的。我当不配,但祂赐的福是满满的。这是真的。
           就以我的成绩来说。其实,我并不是个读书很聪明的学生,虽然小学成绩很不错,但上了中学时,竞争的对象就变多了。那时的我,一直都会和同学比成绩。这种感觉真的很不好。因为到最后,伤心的人是我。毕竟我是不能和他们比成绩,他们真的太厉害了。虽然有点不好受,但都是事实,怎样也要接受的。。。后来,有声音对我说,:“不要再比了。最重要的是,享受读书的乐趣。” 我这时才明白,原来是上帝和我说话。其实,上帝每时每刻都在我的身边。不管我遇到任何挫折,祂就是一直都在守护着我。这感觉真的好不过。到了STPM成绩放时,简直就是睛天霹雳。依我的成绩来说,真的是无法考上大学的。那时候的我,整个人真的要崩溃了。真的不知道怎么办才好。我那时候,不管三七二十一,有我能报考的学院,我一个都不放过。甚至也不放过去面试成为一位护士。后来,我真的成功了那门面试,也收到了通知信,要我在两个星期里,准备去报读。就在这时候,报考大学的成绩出炉了。我真的要感谢天父上帝,是祂。。是祂给我又大学读,是祂给我机会在努力一次。是上帝垂听我的祷告。祂是信实的神,是永远活着的神。
                                                            当你挂念世事如同挑重担,
当你背负十架觉得苦难堪,
若数主的恩典疑惑就消除,
必能叫你快乐立时赞美主。
不论我们处在什么样的景况中,如:难以承担的事工、婚姻的困境、面临失业,或是极度的孤独。我们总能将这些重担卸给上帝。祂既已挪去了我们罪的重担,又岂不能振作我们被忧伤缠累的灵?我们相信上帝赐下永恒的生命,又岂不能将我们现在的景况交托给祂? 「你要把你的重担卸给耶和华,祂必扶养你,祂永不叫义人动摇。」(诗篇55篇22节)
上帝在乎你和我,一切忧虑卸给祂。
                                                                   栽植于灵命日粮

Monday, December 26, 2011

Are u the one i waiting for???

    Who is he that i waiting for?Who is he that God gives to me??I wonder who is he..B4 God giving me an answer,i do realize some1 that surround me recently.He definitely a good guy as my fren's mentioned to me.At 1st, i didn't really noticed him around this area but after my fren's kept on telling me his kindness and everything about him and finally i knew he is really a good guy. My fren did asking me to consider about him. Well, i do consider but there are so much things to be consider.After a deep thinking, de most important thing is that even i have a feeling on him but if he does not has feeling on me then everything is meaningless.
      Since after the last few months, i did thanks God as HE let me to discover that the one i like during holiday was not the one i waiting for this while. God lets me to wait for the right one....Well, i do say the one "He" mentioned here ,i do hope there will have an answer to me..I don't expect so much but i just keep him in my heart...

Sunday, December 4, 2011

写故事的人生

               写一本属于自己的故事人生,听起来真的很有意思。那真的要感谢上帝让我能在一个美好的一个崇拜日,聆听祂仆人传讲给我们明白。其实,我在小学三年级开始已经拥有一本属于自己的一本日记。日记里真的写了很多关于我每一天的生活。比如,谁欺负我,我考试如何,我家里的状况等等。写日子就这样成了我的一种爱好或者说是习惯了。拥有一本日记后,不管发生任何事情,我都会一五一十的一字不漏的写在日记本上。我大概也拥有了三本以上的日记本。其实,我的日记本,通常都会被妈妈发现。有一次,我的日记本里刚好写着我暗恋的朋友,而我就是没把我的日记本收藏好,就这样一位可以当成是秘密的事情,竟让被妈妈知道了。说实话,心里的确是有点很不高兴妈妈的作为,不过就怪自己没把它收藏好。其实,日记本里也记录了我人生的酸甜苦辣。我还记得,我小时候因为诗和公公婆婆住在一块,而且是大家庭的屋檐下,难免会发生争执。就在有个夜晚,妈妈和爸爸,不晓得发生什么事情,突然吵架了,还乱丢东西。那时的我似有小学三或四年级。我那时真的害怕道哭了起来。我还一直喊着爸爸妈妈不要在吵架了,不要再乱丢东西。其实,我小时候就很爱哭,原因也可能是住在公公婆婆家一点快乐也可没有,因为爸妈会因为公公婆婆的事情,而大骂起来。
            回想起着一些事情,眼泪有时候也会掉落。不过,我真的要感谢一直保受及看顾我们家庭的阿爸天父,没有祂,我也不会拥有现在我所居住属于我们自己的一个温暖的家,一个爸爸领走前,亲自建造的的一个屋子。虽然只是单 屋,但是屋里屋外都是属于爸爸和妈妈的心血及金钱。
       一本日记不但能让我发泄,也能让我享受那种说不出的感觉。我其实一直不断地写着属于我自己故事的人生,因为我要记录我在二十三年的里的点点滴滴。不管是好的坏的,都是故事。好的就把它当成回忆,坏的就当成是教训。

Saturday, November 12, 2011

One week trip to Penang



(From left to Right)
Me,Yeong Leang,Calvin,Sam Tat,Thomas Bong,Jun Jie & Poh Aun


Penang is a place where u must stop ur foot step to visit it.It is a place where u can enjoyed lots of delicious food here as well as shopping mall.I was really enjoyed in Penang this whole week here with my sis n oso my UMP friends. We did enjoyed so much n there were lots of fun too^^...However, the sweetest time owes kept it as memorable one in our life.My deepest gratitude to Calvin who willing to drive me around Penang with other of our friends & of course i was really missed his mom's delicious cooked. Her cook made me think of my mom's cook too^^...I juz could say million+billion "Thanks,Calvin"^^ of course,Regina & her bf who oso drove me somewhere in Penang^^..Guys,thanks so much for all these..I'm really enjoyed so much on this trip though I juz could managed hang out 2gather for 2 days in one week with u guys but i do enjoyed it so so much.









Beside that, my sis(Ivy) who oso willing to spend some time hanging out with me to shopping mall n also brought me to USM library where i never enter to there b4. The food in USM really cheaper & delicious than everything in UMP.I wish how nice if UMP's food oso as nice as in USM.Only spent RM5 then i could enjoyed my delicious lunch with orange juice(really wonderful). I oso took some photo in USM area where it was really nice place for me though need to walk for a distance to reach library cz no shutter bus during holiday time in USM.However,i did enjoyed the walking "process" with my sis as i could spent time talked n listened to my sis's matter^^ 

My sis & I at 1st Avenue
USM cafe(look like so high class)







USM delicious lunch 

USM koperasi


USM newest library(Perpustakaan Hamzah Sendut I)
big screen(Dekstop)


Thursday, October 27, 2011

I cried :-(

my mom and my honey babe
I received a video called from my mom n i was so so happy n excited cz been a long time didnt saw my mom's face .Thanks for the new technology that make everything so advance^^ Actually i was crying with joy becz finally i could listened n saw my mom's face^^ i knew dat my mom knew that i was crying but she juz make joked with me by saying "Girl,u use make up har??Why both of ur eyes bling bling one(bcz of the tears)..??"I replied by saying dat"No la,where gt?"..actually my tears edi dropped by droplet.I was so so sad at the same time cz i cant even can go back home though gt one week holiday here.aLL becz of the midterm otherwise i edi back home for holiday:-( i KNEW my mom will understand my situation dat y she didnt mentioned anything juz now...Haiz...this is the situation when away from home to a place that i was trying to adapt with it before and now.