想太多

是我想太多，你总这样说；但你却没有，真的心痛我，是我想太多，我总这样说。。。我相信每个人都希望自己被自己喜欢的人疼爱。。但有些呢，拥有喜欢的人，却没这勇气告诉她或他喜欢的人。因为告诉一个你喜欢的人，真的需要勇气。对男生来说，就算告白失败了，还能另外找一个；女生却不同。对女生来说，对一个自己喜欢的男生告白，真的很难鼓起这个勇气。。因为一旦失败了，心里真的很难受，也很不是滋味，也很丢脸。有人说，女生对男生告白有点奇怪，换句话来说女生和男生告白，就算成功了，也不会持续很久，因为男生恐怕不会珍惜那女生。。难道这句话真的如此？？我也不是很了解，因为我不曾和男生告白，然后谈恋爱。就算我告白，也会是失败的下场。。老实说，我曾经和男生告白过，不过呢结果真的和我想象中的一样“失败”。。其实，我真的在想，我这人真得那么差吗？后来，我觉得，既然不能和他告白，那么我就选择单恋。。单恋虽然很辛苦，不过总好过和他告白，然后又失败，又要从新整理心情。。所以，对我来说，单恋也算很不错。所以，没有人知道我暗恋的是哪一位。。。哈哈哈哈。。。或许，我的时间真的还未到。。上帝其实已经预备好了，只是要我在等待。。当然，上帝给的永远都是最好的。也有朋友对我说，我人格那么好，肯定会拥有个很不错的男友。我只能说，一切由上帝决定。。不过呢，喜欢或单恋一个人真的没有错呀！！就如我现在的心情，虽然有个喜欢的人，不过我只能默默地为他祷告。。拥有和他那兴奋的时光，我也很满足了。。就算被别人说，何必这样做呢？？我会回答说，因为我很喜欢他。。也许，他的心里另有其人，不过没关系。我也没要求什么，只要求他们能天长地久，那就满足了。。也有位好朋友对我说，不要放太大希望在他的身上，因为失望会越高。我明白这句话，因为她害怕我又处于失望。。放心吧，我那好朋友，有妳的安慰，我永远都会过得很好。。

That is how life should be…

Life…..Life is complicated, life is simple, life is so wonderful…Which sentence will be more suitable to describe ur life now? I suppose to say my life is so challenging…Without challenge I guess I will not be so independent and mature. Sometime I was thinking, is there any path for me to choose instead of having such challenging life??God had answered my question…HE said I have to go through all these obstacles regardless how tough is it…I also have to overcome instead of run away from the fact.. God, u r right…No point for me to run away from this reality world cz I noe it will be more challenging in the future. Actually my final exams start next week which will end on 3^rd May. During this few days, at 1^st I was really depress or tension bcz of my carry mARKs..I felt like I was so useless compared to my course mates who can score high mark in their test and so on. I felt so tension until cried whole night (This is the other way to release my tension instead of keep it all the time). Perhaps i was too care with my result cz my pointer is dropping ..i do not hope to get such lousy result..Another reason is that I don wan to disappoint my mom who really love me so much n wan me to be succeed.I noe I couldn’t compare to both of my sis who are intelligent in their study.Perhaps I’m a slow learner that need time to adapt it…n I really put a lots of effort to achieve my goal right now…I noe it is impossible for me to change the result that I get now but I can change my final result cz de final will change everything …Hopefully everything will run smoothly …………………………………….

Independent

Independent...It will be my 2day topic to continue my blog. Many of my frens they do understand what is the meaning of "independent" but sad thing is that they dont practice it in their life especially when they step into other country (others people place). Though i juz left my home come to UMP to continue my study here but i do learn to be independent especially when our family is too far from us.Then, that is the time which we have to be independent but not dependent on your friends too much.Same to study too...Of course , learn to ask question not a bad thing but somehow we shud think that if we always asked same questions to many of fren in the same time you already know how to do the question..this shown that you are such a annoying person or in other way is that you are too lazy to learn to be independent.Is it that difficult to be independent???Is it that troublesome for u to learn to be hardworking???Dont you think that if u always disturbed others fren by asking the same question is so so annoying???People will not think that you are a good student who like to ask question but they will juz feedback to you by saying that "u r so annoying!Please dont disturb me next time!"...I can guarantee that no one will help u next time even u have change ur  that"bad habit"...So,please ...to those who are act such way,please bear in mind that do INDEPENDENT ....but not DEPENDENT to ur friends all the time...otherwise they will keep far away from u n will not think twice to help u next time...

My Beloved Daddy (R.I.P)

My beloved Daddy

4 years...already 4 years he left us in this house.Even i called him there was no response from him anymore.Papa,we miss u so much.The pictures of him lying on the hospital was clearly set in my mind which i would never forgot for the rest of my life.He was lying on the bed with eyes covered with cotton(it bcz his eyes edi shown us to be prepared for his leaving...);his body was full of the medical machine where lots of "wire"(i dunno wat is dat called)..i was really felt upset when i saw my dad had to endure all this pain on the bed..The time he left us was really near when i heard the machine sound alarmed me that my dad was goin to left soon...Doctors and nurses all running to my dad's bed n try their very best to rescue him but.....Thanks Doctors and Nurses,i noe all of u had try ur very best to save my dad...but unfortunately my dad's don willing to stay on..He choose to left cz he don wan to suffer even if he gt chance to be save cz actually even my dad been saved but he also would coma 4ever...However, though at 1st we couldn't accepted the fact but slowly we noe is all destiny。。no one can change the fact...Papa,though u had left us 4ever but we will live stronger and we will take good care of mama as she really needs 5 of us to accompany her so dat she will not feel so lonely..Papa,u owes the great  father of 5 of us and the best husband of mama..We love u ,Papa..Apuchi,sarang hae..

Friends of mine birthday celebration...An unforgettable celebration

 

Chee Suan birthday celebration(12 January 2011)

Birthday boy was blowing the candles...

Chee Suan & Me

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 We celebrated at Air Putih(Steamboat)...

this is what they like to do on girls..but not ending yet...

The revenge time come...wahahaha....



Yew Kun's birthday celebration（25th February 2011)

 

Yew Kun,the birthday cutest girl....

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Nice View...feel like in Japan..

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At Muzium

Chee Suan..........Chee Wei........Men Hoo......Wen Zheng........Yoke Yoon.........Kew Hong.........Yew Kun......Jia Xin(me)...

BUsy.. Busy... Finally rest

Last 2 weeks were a pretty busy weeks for me n others.Bcz i had 3 test n 2 quizzes(2 test in one day) & really rushed for that tests and quizzes.However,everything is done...haiz...but....I was pretty damn disappointed with my friend who i actually tot that person wont do such thing to me(that the real world..no no..i supposedly said i'm too naive to believe that person).I had done my assignments which i put a lots of hard work and efforts on it but the sad thing was my effort become others people's work...I felt so sad in the same time i was very mad with that person..but i really cant do anything as it already happened.Well, i pray to God..I prayed that thanks God for letting me to overcome all these matters and let me to differentiate who will be my truly buddy and who are not qualified..I really wake up after this incident happened on me..At 1st,i was felt like i'm fooled by ppl and they tot i'm too nice to bully or to step on me...Is ok if they really did that to me cz i cant controlled them from doin all these on me.Well,in Bible Scripture stated that if that person slap ur right side(face),then u juz let them to slap another side too...I told myself not to count on this small matter.I'm learn to be patient and forgive every1 but i really need time to do so...God,i know i'm not a perfect person but i'm learning to be a good christian..God,guide me all the way as i really feel weak in certain way...Praise the Lord!Amen!

原来他们就是这样的。。。人心难测。。

               我还记得，每当我们每一次考试时，教授就会（偶尔）给我们一切提示。单纯的我们，就会和其他人分享。这样，我们两年的友情就渐渐的不变陌生，反而更加要好。事事难预料，两年后的他们，却和两年前的他们不同了。人心真的难测呀！！！
               为何我这样说呢？就在最近的考试来打个比喻吧。我们班的教授真的很“诚实”，因为他们并不会给提示。不过，其它班的教授因为来不及赶完索要考得题目，所以就顺便给了答案（考试的答案）。让我很气的是，就算平时和我们很好的朋友，都不会透露给我们知道。这简直就是太过分了。
             不过，他们如此的对待我们。没关系，因为得到益处的事我们。。为什么呢？因为呢，我们是靠实力的（真的很气人嘞！！！）。不过，我知道凡事都看开点。就算他们这样，我们也阻止不了他们的作为。。（算了，想到这些，我真的对他们很失望！！）真的休想我会很好心的帮他们了。。。不会有下一次了。。