Tuesday, November 8, 2016

一门值得学习的功课乃是顺服神

                 2016年快接近尾声了。回想起2016的点点滴滴,还真的很释怀。2016年的年初,我的硕士课程也终于告了一段落。离开古晋到沙登来求学,真的很不容易。一个人离乡背井来到一个不是很熟悉的地方得生存大概一年半的时间。一眨眼,我也就这样挨了过来。其实,我来到沙登并不孤单,反而结识了许多弟兄姐妹。我相信这一切的发生,都是神给与我满满给的祝福与恩典。后来,我便回到属于我的地方,那就是古晋。回到古晋大概有半年左右。在这半年里,虽然不是无所事事,因为也收了一位补习学生到我家里来补习。但是,日子久了,担心的事就来了。所谓担心的事就是我的工作。我在这半年里,一直不断的申请好多份工作,例如:新加坡的,马来西亚的,甚至也有申请中国的工作。我心里想,就申请吧。如果我真的得到中国的邀请信,那我相信这是神的安排。等啊等。。。等啊等。。就这样七月份就来了。我所发出去的申请全部毫无音讯。我这时真的慌了!我真的很焦急又压力,因为妈妈一直把工作的事情常挂在嘴边。甚至有一个夜晚,我躺在床上,痛哭一场。我真的好无奈!!的确,当人软弱的时候,往往都会埋怨神的时候;而我也不例外。我埋怨神,为何我还是得不到我想要的工作?为何我还事业?多么的为什么就这样浮现在我的脑海里。我知道,天父其实知道我需要的一切。然而,神要我学习的功课乃是顺服,耐心等候。就在一个清晨,我打开灵修书籍时,上帝真的很奇妙。祂透过灵修,让我学习顺服及忍耐的功课。圣经记载在约拿书44节:耶和华说:‘你这样发怒合乎理吗?’我真的被这节经文给愣了!上帝真的是无所不在的神;祂知道我心里想着什么。后来,我在祷告当中,求神怜悯我那埋怨祂的心。我知道我不应该因为小小的担忧,而埋怨神。


      过了不久,神终于给了我一份工作!哈利路亚!虽然这一份工作并不在古晋,得离开家人到吉隆坡生活,但我相信这一个新的开始是神让我去学习如何在一个人生地不熟的地方开始工作。就这样,我来到吉隆坡也有三个月的时间了。在这一间公司,我也学习很多。这里的同事,领导与上司,人品还算不错;每一位都很恭恭敬敬的。不但如此,我也在今年开始了我的灵修祷告。透过灵修,我真的深深的感受到神确实的对我说话,而我也得着许多。天父真的很爱我们每一个人。无论我们之前犯了错,只要愿意悔改归回,我相信神肯定会怜悯你与我。约812这么说到:“若有人怕死亡的权势,可以到我这里来,到我这里来的人,我总不丢弃他。”又说;“你们跟随我来,我就是生命的光。信我的人总不在黑暗中行走。。。”

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Goodbye 2015..... Welcome 2016!

时间不断的走,我也跟着时间赛跑。一转眼,今天就是2015年的最后一天了。的确,2015年对我而言,有快乐的,有开心的,有酸的,也有苦的时候。我很肯定,这一切都是最美好的回忆。神让我经历了四种味觉,是有原因的。无可否认,离乡背井到一个人生地不熟的地方求学和工作,真的不简单。之前的四年到了关丹生活,后来就来到了沙登。起初,对这里没什么好感,也会时常想家。神真的很疼爱我,把我带到一个充满爱的大家庭里,那就是沙登新村教会(SERDANG BARU CHRISTIAN CHURCH)。刚开始,对每一个人都很陌生,话也不多,谈得来的只有慧婷和慧雯两姐妹。渐渐的,每一次都参与SBCC的青团;也认识了好多弟兄姐妹。他们是多么的热情,那么的关怀我。这就是神把我带到这里来的原因。所以,现在看着时间一天一天的走,我要离开沙登的日子也剩下两个星期。开始有那不舍得的时候了,因为开始和教会的每一位UNCLE AUNTY们谈得来,而且是那种无话不说的。当然,和青年人更不用说,个个都对我超级要好。真的!我很舍不得你们!不过,我答应大家,我已有机会,我一定会回来探望你们,不会忘记你们每一个人的面孔。

说到开心,快乐的的事,就是。。。我二姐与二姐夫终于结婚啦!真得替他们开心。当天真得还有点手忙脚乱,毕竟我们家,是第一次办婚礼嘛,所以会乱糟糟的。但感谢神,有着一位旧邻居的帮助下,我们后来才不会那么手忙脚乱。我相信,爸爸一定很开心的。最辛苦的,少不了我妈,都忙着帮我二姐筹备婚礼的事情;都会有担心的事情。也难怪妈,因为是她第一次嫁女儿,心情当然又开心又措手不及。

那至于我的学业呢,一直都有起伏不定的时候。就说论文吧,刚开始觉得我的SV是那种很帮助学生的教授,却到最后发现,她是那种很不会分配时间处理事情的教授。本来是在30号,我们要交上一本完整的论文,却在上个星期收到消息说,这个星期才能收到。我真的崩溃了!我真的窒息,快透不过气来!就在很沮丧的时候,妈妈的一通电话,让我泪流了。我泪流是因为,我妈告诉我,别那么沮丧,祷告神,神会看顾的。这一句话,真的让我很安慰。因为我明白,知道,还有神以及我妈,那么支持我。就在这星期一,终于收到教授的信息,说可以见她了!我真的有开心又紧张;开心因为可以拿回我的论文;紧张因为,我担心会有太多错误必须该。感谢神!改正的部分是有的,但不多。上帝就是那么真实的。我的每一样祷告祂都催听!把荣耀归于上帝!

那悲伤的事,就在昨天(30日)早上接到我小叔的噩耗。我简直就是不敢相信!才不久前才去探望他,却等不到明年,就这样离开了我们。我还想说,等我考完试,就回去探望他,怎知道我等不到了。心里很难受,也很遗憾不能回去奔丧,因为后天将要考试了。心情的却很差,但朋友以及弟兄姐妹的安慰,我的心情才能平复下来。也感谢我的HOUSEMATE,愿意听我诉苦。

就这样,2015年就要和我们说再见啦!希望在接下来的2016,会是个更丰盛,更加充满爱心的社会,有个正直的国家领袖。当然,爱主的心,一天比一天更深,永远都跟随祂!

Friday, December 11, 2015

Great Opportunity to Serve HIM

I'd been not updated my blog since last year 31st December 2015( Gosh!!! It almost a year !!!!) In fact, I was busy whole year with variety events that occupied my days. So, what made me to be so busy? Of course, the very first would be my study ( and this sem is my final sem for my postgraduate). I couldn't believe that I had almost complete my study in few weeks left. Time really past too fast....... Frankly speaking,  I couldn't bear to leave here as I started to love Serdang especially friends from SBCC (Serdang Baru Christian Church). They were all such wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ who treated me superb well here. Thanks Lord for making all these happened to me in Serdang although the time we spent together in church not too long ( as I'd to attend my class on every weekend so not too frequent to Sunday Service at SBCC).

For the current event which named 沙登搞搞战 had brought me into a new experienced to serve our Almighty God. I'd never involved to evangelism activity before and it was a great and awesome thing to serve HIM by sharing HIS gospel to all the youths who were non-christian all over in Serdang. Nothing is impossible in God! So believe & have Faith in HIM!






















Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Chapter 2014 come to the end.....Welcoming new Chapter 2015

           Today is the last day of 2014. So, let me recall back my 2014 story line. Firstly, I had worked under two companies which in same line. However, the bitter moment always came toward me when there was something went wrong. Anyway, I would take it as an experienced rather than took it as a revenge. Secondly, I caught in a car accident which the incident still so clear in my memory. I would say "Thanks God for everything that happened on me!" because I learnt to be stronger than before and have FAITH in HIM. I knew God never left me behind even a single moment. I had no injury and no bone fracture although it considered to be a tragic accident that everyone thought. Thirdly is the aviation disaster that frighten everyone on this earth. The first aviation tragedy was MH370. I would say this happened too sudden as until today no dead body to be found or even a debris of MH370. Second would be MH17 (the plane crashed)  flight from Amsterdam to Kuala Lumpur that crashed on 17 July 2014 that killing 238 passengers and 15 crews on board. Next will be the current one , that is QZ8501 flight from Surabaya to Singapore with 155 passengers and few crews on board also one of the tragic incidents. So far 40 bodies been found . All these aviation disasters seriously frighten to those who frequently fly on plane. Frankly speaking, I have a bit phobia with either AirAsia or Mas Wing. However, I believe that Heavenly Father will protecting me wherever I go.  Fourthly, the flooding that happened in West Malaysia which attacked states of Kelantan, Terengganu, Pahang and Kedah also a saddened case. Hopefully the condition in Kelantan will getting better.


             2014 is really a tragic year to be but still we need to live on. Hopefully in year 2015 will be a good and peaceful year ahead. May God bless this world and the peoples in this earth abundantly. 

Thursday, December 25, 2014

25th December ---> A very meaningful day to be remember and celebrate!

              25th December 2005 ....So what's happened to this day? Of course people would definitely say is Christmas Day! So what exactly 25th December meant to me? Or supposed to say to everyone of us? Well, 25th December is actually a day which Jesus Christ born to this world and HE came to this earth for many purposes. So the reason why 2005 year a significant year to me as I had officially MARRIED to Jesus when the time I said "I Do!" Yes, I do to follow HIM everywhere I am. I was officially HIS daughter at the moment when I said "I DO"! It was an amazing work! I really feeling so great to become HIS daughter in Christ Family. No matter small or big thing that happened in my life I would definitely Thanks God for giving me such thing to happen. I knew all these were not simple but HE sacrificed everything to save me from the darkness to where I supposed to follow. Jesus , definitely my FRIEND, my SAVIOR, my Partner in my life. HE never left me behind even a single moment. When I was down , I could felt that HE actually comforting me. I know I made a great and right decision to follow HIM in my life. Without HIM in my life , I am nothing at all! 

             Frankly speaking, I still wondered whether I had make a right decision to come over to UPM for further study. I need to sacrifice my Sunday service in order to attend my every classes . I have to skip all the Sunday Service which I supposed to attend it. Sometime, I really felt regret with my own decision cz I couldn't managed to go church due to this reason. However, I'm really thanks God for one thing today. HE had placed me to Serdang Baru Christian Church that brought by a sister named Karen. She brought me to attend the Christmas Service here and I felt so great after 3 months of study during weekend. I hope that I could joined their cell group after this semenster. I really need HIM in my life. Praise LORD for everything that HE gave me for no reasons. I love YOU, JESUS!

Serdang Baru Christian Church

Blessed Christmas

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

121214-----一个我永远都记得的日期《生病记》

121214,早上三点,我全身不知怎的,突然发抖。冷得不得了。我心里想着,这次不是那么倒霉中了瘟疫吧?那感觉真的很难受;简直就是很想离开这里。在那一瞬间,我眼泪掉了;我哭了,因为这一次的生病,没有我妈妈在我身旁;没人递给我药物吃;没人问问我到底怎么啦;还会觉得很冷吗。。等等。。。每一年的十二月我肯定会生一次大病,而且一病就要三四天才会康复。生病期间,真的要感谢神,因为惠婷姐妹和她的姐姐一同送我去诊疗所看病,后来我的病情也好转了一些。真的神一直都在看顾我,一直呵护我。去年的那一天,我根本都不需要担心没药吃,因为都在古晋,有妈妈的照顾;反而,今年我却来到沙登,没妈妈在身边,又是开始要独立的时候了。如果能把我妈妈带来,我肯定把我妈妈接过来。呵呵呵。。。。

Saturday, November 8, 2014

如何看待你珍贵的生命

                      最近有好几宗关于自杀来了断自己那宝贵的生命。大部分的都是少年人。请问,你对自己的生命有何看法?它对你而言重要吗?这问题肯定会有人回答,当然很重要。那么,你到底对自己的生命有多了解?关于这一点,我真的可以很确定的告诉你们。生命对我来说,是多么的重要啊!!!我也要郑重的告诉你们,我的生命是上帝给我的!这一切都是真实的,并无一丝一毫的谎言。

                   我还记得半年前,也就是5月10日。我发生了一场我难以忘怀的车祸。如果不是上帝的保守,我很肯定我已经不在人世了,也不会在这里和大家分享这一切。至于车祸的经过我就不多说了。我只想说,当车子撞到GUARD RAIL时,我乘坐的那辆车简直就是失控了。整辆车子就是四脚朝天的(撞了路旁两边的铁窗,就这样翻了)。就在车子翻转的时候,我只记得想,这下怎么办,车子翻了!!我脑袋一直想着我的家人,就是那种很混乱的感觉。但是,奇怪的是,我和我弟弟竟然没事。我们俩真的一点骨折或重伤都没有。所以,我真的相信这一切都是神的保守及看顾。对路人而言,在车子里面的我们,不是重伤就是死亡。奇迹的就是,我和我弟真的一点伤痛都没有。

                      这事情发生的几天后,我对我自己说,既然上帝给了我机会活着,那我就要活得更加喜乐,更加爱惜自己的生命。生命,一旦真的丢了,就永远不会再回来;就算你拥有多么多金钱,却于事无补。所以,现在的我更加爱惜自己,更加觉得生命得来不易。
当我读了那些关于自杀事件的新闻,真的很心痛。好好的一个生命,就这样为了感情或因为课业的压抑,而了断自己的生命。这行为真的太愚蠢了。不但带给家人心痛,也造成社会的困扰。的确会反映出一个让人觉得,生命好像一个玩意儿。如有这想法的,我确实的告诉也警告你们,千万不要拿自己的生命开玩笑。这一点也不好笑!

                                      爱惜生命,犹如神爱我们一样。

A new life begin after 4th September 2014----> Master Student's life

               Wow, I'd been a pretty long time not update my blog here and today I'm gonna to tell a story of my life after a hardship that I'd gone through this past half year. First of all, I would like to show my appreciation to my family especially my mom who so supportive towards my Master study here in UPM (Universiti Putra Malaysia). Next, Is God who giving me an opportunity to experienced a Master Life here. Friendly Speaking that the decision to study here was truly bothered me so much. However, I will not telling the reason why it bothering me much. Still I'm glad to be here in Serdang. 

               Well, I had really learnt lots of new knownledge here. There are so much new things that I learnt here and really awakening me after all. I'm taking Master of  Environmental Engineering so most of the time I need to study more on Environment and i found out that it is really an interesting course to learn. For instance, The Summit Compenhagen which I never knew that it is a big issue that related to the world's pollution or matter that to be concerned all over the world. Well, I do enjoy study here in UPM. Nevertheless, I met a lots of new friends here in Serdang . I believe that there is a reason why God put me here and I love God's planning as HE gave all the best one to me. I love YOU, God. Without God in my life I am nothing at all. HE is the one who change me to a better person and guide me all my life. God, thanks for YOUR sacrificed. 


I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER, JESUS! 

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

A mystery of disappear of MH370

It's come to 3rd Day and still MH370 not been found yet among the rescue team and the involve of authorities from all over the world. Also, it became the most hottest issue/ news over the world. So, where is the flight gone?? I believe everyone in the earth still wondering where exactly the flight flew away? Or  it was the terrorist's planning from the very beginning? Sound so ridiculous as everything comes too coincidence. I hope everything will be fine after a week. I know that Lord has save everyone of them. Have FAITH in HIM. No matter how bad is the situation we just wait patiently. We will know the very best answer soon. Do not spread out any unreliable news or rumurs to hurt the passengers' family as they need some space to calm down. My sense tell me that all the passengers in flight MH370 will be save.





Sunday, February 16, 2014

Working life doesn't seem to be enjoyable for me??!!!-----> Part I

Is 2014 now and almost a year I didn't managed to update my blog after my last sem in UMP in October 2013. Time flies extremely fast which I still unable to digest all I had experienced in KUANTAN for my 4 years degree here. So, I'm now a working people. However, thing doesn't goes well as I expected.
 Although I had tried my very best to help the company ( my previous company) to be in track however they didn't appreciated with what I had done or to be said contributed to the company. Scolded by clients, complaint by clients...all these I had to settle by myself without my employer HELP. Unnecessary people came to complaint about my working performance. If he or she had witnessed everything in this company then I had nothing to say but yet he or she just an outsider who know nothing but know to insulting me and complaint me to my family members. I didn't do anything harmful to company yet they tried to destroy my reputation then I really have nothing to say. Keep silent will always the best choice for me to not creating any unnecessary problems again. Betrayed also happened here. I shouldn't trust anyone easily in this company. That 's my weakness and I admit it. In short, I will not trust anyone so easily or I supposed to say no gossiping, no gang, no POLITIC in company if still want to have an excellence result or market in Construction Industry. Disappointment will be the best word to describe my best feeling towards my previous company. I not doing any harmful matter to your company but help out to let your company to be the honest company that people will trust much but yet you rejected my help so I really don't know what to say but just wish best of luck to you.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Listen! Listen! Listen!

       Listen (X10)...Sharifah who did that to an UUM undergraduate student who voice out her opinion to the public but consequently been stopped and humiliated by Sharifah who was the one didn't even showed a little mean of respect to Bawani. This situation really showed that there are still some of the people really mean..In my own point of view, Sharifah shud filter everything before she pointed her own view to Bawani. She supposedly learned to accept ppl's opinion and listened to public before they ended. Sharifah kept on saying Bawani lack of education but did she realised that she was the one who lack of education based on what she had thrown the words to Bawani??? Everywhere also have degree students. Even Master holder student also will show manner in front of public but Sharifah just a degree student but she acted like she has high level in her education. Only one words could describe her attitude " BRAINLESS" and "So Mean"...

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Hello ,2013!!!

              Wow, I'd been quite a long time didn't updated my blog here. Well, now comes to 2013 which is a brand new year for me as well as my final year in UMP. I had so much words to express here but it take a long time to write here . Anyway, I will shorten it..Hehehe...
                 Though I can't have my precious time to spend together with my beloved mom n siblings in Kuching but I felt so grateful of one thing. That was my mom. She finally has accepted Jesus Christ to enter her life. This was a great news to me which also one of my 2013 wishes. Lord, thanks for everything that U gave to me. I know that all these not come in coincident but U are the one who made all these happen possibly. My dad had left us for almost 4 years. Although sometime I would think of the sweetest time I had spent with my dad in previous day and tears dropped down but I know all these happened for a reason. The day he passed away did made me stand strong. From that moment onward, I knew that it would become a hard time for 5 of us including my mom to overcome all these for a short moment. However, we had overcome all these hardship as I knew all these because of the Almighty Lord who protects , guide us all the time. I miss u so much,Dad :-(
                 Friends...I knew there were few friends that who always there with me all the time regardless my happiest moment or even my hard time. In fact, they never left me away. They hold my hand tight to make me warmer. Thanks to my friends who helped me all these while. Friends, u know who u are...U guys are the best to me & friendship will never end. U guys brought a lots of joy to me as well as "things" that I never exposed before in my life..hahahaha..Explored something crazy had really tighten our friendship. Boys & Girls, U guys really made me forget who am I actually..hahaha....Kidding :-) Anyway, I really had enjoying the craziest, happiest moment with all of u ...


Sunday, May 20, 2012

妈妈,您真的太伟大,真的辛苦您了

              二十七年了,您已经劳累了那么久,您却坚持着。我妈妈是一位家庭主妇兼保姆。我妈在我大姐七岁时,就开始兼职保姆。这么多年来,她为的是我们五个兄弟姐妹。妈妈的意志力很强,也不认输的一位妇女。或许因为遇到周围的遭遇,让我妈妈更加要坚持她的意念,就是不管多辛苦也好,也要把我们一个个送进大学和给最好的教育。
             到了今天,我们如妈妈所愿,大姐已经是为专业的护士;二姐还在继续她的硕士学位;而我, 现在还在大学的第三年;四弟呢,就快要深上大学;小弟呢,就在来临的星期二,会到槟城继续他的FORM 6。这一切,都是因为妈妈爱我们,花了不少金钱在我们五个人身上。最近,妈妈也在家多照顾一位BABY。我真的知道家里的开销很大,毕竟小弟会到槟城住。自然而然,花费就大了。我真的真得很荣幸,拥有一位那么百般的疼我们的妈妈。她是我心中一级棒的妈妈。将来拥有了属于自己的薪水,我一定会把我的,给妈妈。而且,那时候是妈妈的休息时刻了,是时候享受人生的乐趣。
            妈妈,您真的辛苦了。我知道,每一次我们一个个到别地方求学,您会掉下您的眼泪。就算您有多么的不舍得,您仍然让我们独立。您的眼泪,换成了我们今天的成就。妈妈,我们都是爱您的。您是我们最棒的妈咪,也是爸爸最棒的老婆:-)

Friday, April 20, 2012

朋友VS男友

         在我们的生命中,除了上帝和家人外,朋友也是很重要的。但是,最矛盾的问题有时候会浮现在我的脑海里。难道,女生一旦有了另一半,就会默默地不再关心身边的朋友吗?人,就是有软弱的时候,却不知道自己所做的一切。我有一位朋友,因为最好的朋友自从有了男友之后,就开始的,不理睬她了。她心里真的很难过。做了那么久的朋友,竟然就在接受另一半的追求的时候,就这样抛开了之前很要好的朋友。我在思想,难道男朋友真得那么重要吗?重要到可以不理睬好朋友。
       对我而言,男朋友虽然重要,但是朋友呢??朋友难道就不重要了吗?我要感谢主的是,我认识了主耶稣,让我知道我的生命中,什么来的重要。当然,上帝的位子无人能取代,永远都是在我心目中,是第一位的。接着就是我的家人。没有上帝,就没有我的家人,没有我的家人,就没有今天的我。接下来,应该会是工作或者是生命中的另一半。
       对我来说,朋友无论如何,都很重要。没有他们,就没有今日的欢笑。我只能对我那一位朋友说,不必理睬那么多。就算她很在意,她的朋友知道吗??爱情是盲目,这句话我真的真正明白这意思了。

Friday, April 13, 2012

就这样过了三年

真的很快,我在UMP也有三年的求学生涯了啦,再过一年就要和UMP告别了。虽然很想快点离开UMP,不过真的很多美好的回忆都在这里发生。其实,在还未来UMP之前,我祷告上帝,我告诉上帝,我要坐飞机去西马求学。不过,现在我的确有点后悔,原因在于我很想念古晋的家人。每一次回来UMP,都要忍着眼泪离开家里。我真的很不喜欢这种感觉,真的有很舍不得家人。虽然我来西马有三年了,不过我还是很想念家的。如果再给我机会,我不会选择离乡背井,我愿意留在古晋,陪家人多一点。。

Thursday, March 15, 2012

失去的,永远都的不回来。。

         也许,没有人晓得,我曾经拥有过两次失败的恋情。但是,这两段恋情也不算是正式的。换句话来说,我第一个恋情呢,是在一个CAMP,才认识三天,就展开一段维持不到一年的恋情,就这样散了。我现在回想起来,我的确很天真,很傻,也很笨。认识不到一星期,就和他展开恋情,未免也太快及太渴望爱了。哈哈。。回想这个事情,我真的觉得自己好像很缺爱一样,随便和住在Negeri Sembilan 的他谈起恋爱。那时的我,真的只有想着短暂的,而不是长远的。后来,因为他说要专心在功课方面,所以就这样我们也就分开了。其实,这一段恋情,我妈妈是知道的,只不过我没在妈妈面前提起。那时候,妈妈的确很反对,因为他毕竟是才认识不久的,就那么快开始,而且我那时也是面临高中三的考试,所以就放弃了。
       第二段的,就是网上认识的一位沙巴男生。他是在新加坡工作,所以有时就会在晚上时,会打个电话,和我聊天。这一位呢,是个好男生,也是个初信者(基督徒)。有时也会和我谈关于福音。那时候的我,还觉得他正是上帝赐给我的伴侣。我真的很开心和他的那一段感情。但是,感情的事,有起有落。也许是我经不起考验,就这样我也放弃了这一段很难忘的感情。我老实说,他是个很好的一位男生。只是我不懂得珍惜,才会失去他。一旦失去的,就永远回不到我的身边。不过,现在两位也拥有自己的另一半,也过得很不错。
      实际上,我也对感情的事情,有点恐惧感了。我真的不想有段恋情,却持续不久的。我想要的就是,他是现在,也是最后的那一位,是一位能陪我到最后一刻。有时候,身边的朋友都会问我,我长得如此,和人说我没男朋友,还真的不相信。我就老实的告诉他们,我的确现在没有,因为上帝还未安排一个给我。虽然有时候会很羡慕及嫉妒那些拥有伴侣的朋友,但是我深信上帝将赐给我的,是永远最好的。所以,我不用赶紧的寻找我的另一半,因为他其实已经在某个角落等着,只是还不是最适合的时候。我也一直告诉自己,真爱要等待。就算是需要很久的时间,我也愿意等。因为最后的那一位,永远是最好的一位。


                         失去的虽然都永远回不来,但是曾经拥有过美好的回忆,那一切也值得的。

Saturday, February 25, 2012

苦中有喜乐

         三年前的一个下午,我就这样失去了一个抚养我长大的爸爸。从那时刻起,家里就少了一个成员。虽然那时候的我,心里真的很难受,很煎熬,但是祂的存在让我真的感到安慰。让我感受到,其实我并不是一个人的。上帝的扶持和安慰,的确让我知道生命的意义。上帝陪我度过了生命中的酸甜苦辣。不管是开心的,伤心地,我都会和上帝述说,因为是祂让我经历这一切事情。要不是因为这一切事情,我真的无法变得更独立,更坚强。朋友都说,我是个女强人,但是事实上我是个内心软弱的一个人。当然,我不会随意的表露出来。不管遇到感情上的挫折,或是生活上的挫折,只要来到上帝的面前,我自然而然的,心情就好起来了。
      老实说,我并不适合或没资格去喜欢一个人。因为,我往往都是那失败者。在这几年里,喜欢的人,当然是有的。但是,事情就好象剧情里一样,我喜欢的那个人,他不喜欢我。这就是为什么我宁愿爱自己多一点,爱上帝更多一点,也不把任何希望放在喜欢的人身上。只要我很满足现在的生活,我觉得这一切都胜过任何一样事情。圣经里说道,我们学习要知足。这就是我生命中,苦中带来喜乐。

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Cherating 2 day one night trip


                Cherating ..at 1st i don really noe where izit but after been thr n i felt like it was a nice place to pay a visit. It was a trip where 10 of us went thr to have a big gathering ,stayed in one medium challet but it felt great as all of us could get closer to each other juz in a short time. I couldn't believed that i could watched fire flies in silent night with 10 of them..It was really an interesting n memorable night to me. One thing that i couldn't forgot was that i got drunk dat night juz only 6% alcohol drink n made me vomit that night..really a funny night with  9 of them.  We able to get close to each other n our friendship become more closer . I will not forgot the sweetest time with all of u..I'm so glad to have all of u  in my life. 

Monday, February 13, 2012

我的生命是祂给的

           或许别人会问我,为何我的生命是祂给的呢?所谓的祂,不是男的他,也不是女的她, 而是天父上帝,主耶稣基督给我的生命。如果不是祂,就没有今天的我。我生命所发生的一切事情,都是祂的保守及看顾。然而,我真的很感恩,因为自从认识了主耶稣基督后,我今天所拥有的一切都是上帝赐给我的。我当不配,但祂赐的福是满满的。这是真的。
           就以我的成绩来说。其实,我并不是个读书很聪明的学生,虽然小学成绩很不错,但上了中学时,竞争的对象就变多了。那时的我,一直都会和同学比成绩。这种感觉真的很不好。因为到最后,伤心的人是我。毕竟我是不能和他们比成绩,他们真的太厉害了。虽然有点不好受,但都是事实,怎样也要接受的。。。后来,有声音对我说,:“不要再比了。最重要的是,享受读书的乐趣。” 我这时才明白,原来是上帝和我说话。其实,上帝每时每刻都在我的身边。不管我遇到任何挫折,祂就是一直都在守护着我。这感觉真的好不过。到了STPM成绩放时,简直就是睛天霹雳。依我的成绩来说,真的是无法考上大学的。那时候的我,整个人真的要崩溃了。真的不知道怎么办才好。我那时候,不管三七二十一,有我能报考的学院,我一个都不放过。甚至也不放过去面试成为一位护士。后来,我真的成功了那门面试,也收到了通知信,要我在两个星期里,准备去报读。就在这时候,报考大学的成绩出炉了。我真的要感谢天父上帝,是祂。。是祂给我又大学读,是祂给我机会在努力一次。是上帝垂听我的祷告。祂是信实的神,是永远活着的神。
                                                            当你挂念世事如同挑重担,
当你背负十架觉得苦难堪,
若数主的恩典疑惑就消除,
必能叫你快乐立时赞美主。
不论我们处在什么样的景况中,如:难以承担的事工、婚姻的困境、面临失业,或是极度的孤独。我们总能将这些重担卸给上帝。祂既已挪去了我们罪的重担,又岂不能振作我们被忧伤缠累的灵?我们相信上帝赐下永恒的生命,又岂不能将我们现在的景况交托给祂? 「你要把你的重担卸给耶和华,祂必扶养你,祂永不叫义人动摇。」(诗篇55篇22节)
上帝在乎你和我,一切忧虑卸给祂。
                                                                   栽植于灵命日粮

Monday, December 26, 2011

Are u the one i waiting for???

    Who is he that i waiting for?Who is he that God gives to me??I wonder who is he..B4 God giving me an answer,i do realize some1 that surround me recently.He definitely a good guy as my fren's mentioned to me.At 1st, i didn't really noticed him around this area but after my fren's kept on telling me his kindness and everything about him and finally i knew he is really a good guy. My fren did asking me to consider about him. Well, i do consider but there are so much things to be consider.After a deep thinking, de most important thing is that even i have a feeling on him but if he does not has feeling on me then everything is meaningless.
      Since after the last few months, i did thanks God as HE let me to discover that the one i like during holiday was not the one i waiting for this while. God lets me to wait for the right one....Well, i do say the one "He" mentioned here ,i do hope there will have an answer to me..I don't expect so much but i just keep him in my heart...